Can't even know.

Life has been good, so why all of a sudden on this Tuesday night am I feeling a bit down? I'm really not even sure. I wish I could explain. I have a friend, she likes this kid who isn't good for her. Nice kid, but I don't want her with him, because she's such a sweetheart, and quite honestly? Too good for him. I just want to shoo him away, but I know that it's out of my hands. I have also been thinking about how limited good guys are these days. As I was standing at the game tonight, staring into space at times, and everything just seemed to be in slow motion, and the sound drowned everything out. I was just standing there thinking, and listening. Watching....everything. Sometimes I want that guy in high school, to have around. To have as that encouragement. Tonight I wanted the one guy who was 1,700 miles away with me tonight, because he's the most encouraging guy I know. Probably the best guy I know, and yet he's so far. I wanted to tell him how awesome he is, and I wish there was someone like him, here. Because society is lacking gentleman. Even my sister has some guy she's talking to, my friends have awesome guys. I know one day, when I least expect it, that guy is going to come clearly, abd quite honestly I don't want a guy...but once in a while it would be nice to have a guy do something nice for me. Do I even want to go to the subject that prom is going to suck if I don't have a rockin awesome prom date. Not nto mention a smokin hot expensive dress that I will look stunning in. ughhh. High school. I'm trying to take all of this in.