Just call me a mixing bowl full of mystery

Alright, so I have a million and one things that I actually want to pursue in my lifetime. I believe that anyone can pursue anything if they take the time to set their mind to it. I have a meeting at Aveda Salon Institute tomorrow. Not sure what will happen, but it's definitely worth the shot. A lot of people think that they could definitely see me doing something like this. In a high class salon of course ;) It's worth a shot and who knows, I may find that I love it. Right now I'm kinda like...mehh...uhh....clueless? yeah. I mean, I could never see myself cutting someone's hair, or coloring it for that matter. But I have some kind of funk im me that says maybe I could do it. Not only do I Lalalala LOVE to dink around with my hair, but it's a way of self expression, which is awesome. You can have tattoos, piercings, whatever...and still be accepted into the world of beauty. That's what beauty is. Self expression. Art. Creativity. Color. Voice.
So tomorrow, I will walk into Aveda with my swag on. The confidence that maybe it would be fun. A chance to express myself, meet new people, and have fun. Even if this isn't my DREAM job(which it could be) at least I can always say that I have this as a back up plan....I love this. Not knowing exactly where I'm going or what I want to do with my life. It's kind of the story of my life. Maybe you think that's kind of lame. Call me unmotivated. no no...that's not it. I have things I want to do. I just feel like it's all in one mixing bowl. But for now it's ok, because that's who I am. I'm okay with it, because a little mystery never hurt a girl...especially me.

I have a dream.....

So I've been doing a great deal of thinking. I got a reallllllllllllll nice guitar for Christmas. It's beautiful in every single way. I start lessons next week and I've never been more excited about learning a new hobby. I know a few things about how to play guitar probs from my cousin and her husband. Basically I can play some tabs. Other than that I just dink around with it and pretend I can play well. :)
Anyways, I have this idea that maybe one day I can actually pursue my singing and playing. A lot of you probably don't know that I have a passion for singing but am too shy to make my voice known most of the time. But when I do, people are in awe of my voice. I'm actually kind of timid in the fact that I don't think I'm that good. But I guess there's no harm in trying to get my voice out there, eventually. I have always enjoyed being the center of attention. Not to seem conceited or anything. But you know? I love public speaking, speeches, etc...but when it comes to singing I get so nervous. I am going to hopefully start voice lessons too. I am in chorus at school, but that just sucks. Like greatly. I don't enjoy it at all. And if my teacher reads this, yes...it's because of you....cough. Anyways. So this is kind of an exciting adventure for me. Starting a new hobby, and even if I don't become famous I can just be content with the fact that it's kind of my sactuary to be able to light a candle, play some music, and sing.